Vacation Trip… Finally Here!

Will be leaving my computer to be repaired while on vacation…
Think I need new driver…
It will be like leaving my old cat… sad…
I will miss both…
and my Jill will be looking for me I’m sure…
A sweet neighbor/friend… will be checking on her for me… along with mail… etc. …
but, my computer will just have to bear it until I return…
waiting for me to pound out my ideas… thoughts… and words to whoever will listen…
My computer has become like an old friend…
I was intimidated at first and then starting exploring … and now…
I love her!…
No, I haven’t actually given my computer a name…
but, she is a good friend…
letting me sit and pound out my frustrations and joys…
We will be leaving for Panama City, Florida this Friday…
My countdown is down to one more day…
I can’t believe it!…
Bobby and I are going with our kids, grandkids, daughter-in-law and her mother…
Separate cars… but, will meet in Alabama for a night …
taking it easy… ALL of us…
and then heading to the beach the next day…
I feel pretty prepared…
clothes about ready to pack…
cooler cleaned and drinks/snacks bought for the road trip…
Bobby has the car in excellent condition…
going over tires, brakes, oil/fluids, transmission and a cleaning/wax job even…
That’s my guy…
We will finish up last-minute things today and tomorrow…
Some friends want us to go for ice cream this evening… before we leave…
Love this sweet thought…
Letting us know we will be missed…
Neighbors are excited for us getting away as us I do believe…
They are the kindest…
declaring our house will be watched…
In my thoughts…
I feel this may be the last trip together with our little family for my Bobby…
so… it is important for us to go and enjoy the boys… the grandkids and our little family we have made…
Skipping a treatment(chemo) will let Bobby be at his best for the trip…
more energy… less side effects…
so wish us a safe trip please…
and prayers are welcomed for a lovely time…

Getting Prepared…

When I had to put my “special” dog, “SUGAR” to sleep… after 16 years…
I knew I could “do it”… on the day I chose…
I woke up knowing it had to be done…
going blind, tumor, hearing loss…
TOO much for her to stand any longer!….

TODAY!…
I had the strength and the time was right!…
I’m sure there are several who know “what I mean”…
It’s that way when we have to make hard decisions…
Make hard choices…
Do something that we DON”T want to…
I woke up today with that “I can do this!” feeling…
I had gotten all paperwork together….
Had been thinking where I was going…
and it felt “right”…
You ask, “Where were you going?”…
“What was it you had to do?”…
I had to go to the funeral home…
to make arrangements… ask questions… check on prices… needs… what was expected… address my wants… desires…
along with Bobby’s…
You see…
He wanted to go with me…
As we always do… and have done…
Making important decisions “together”…
We had some of our desires figured out…
and NOW we wanted to get things lined out…
for “WHENEVER” that time would come…
Some may call this morbid…
WE DON”T!…
We wanted to be settled on our decisions…
have things in order….
and make this situation as simple as possible…
We had debated on cremation… or burial…
Being older has changed some of our thoughts on some things…
The funeral home I chose…
answered all of my questions…
my wants/desires…
and were so accommodating in meeting our “needs”…
Insurance discussed…
and all arrangements were discussed…
So pleased with Funeral Home which is near the Cemetery we have had plots at for over 30 years…
Very pretty…
Spacious for family gathering and viewing…
Nice people to work with…
and seemed to really care in pleasing us…
YES…
we will be cremated…
of course it seems as Bobby will be leaving ME… with being diagnosed with this cancer… and saying terminal…
but, as I know… ONLY GOD truly knows…
and I am so glad…
HE has left that in HIS HANDS …
and our duty is just to have the Faith and Love to abide by HIS wishes…
This funeral home has a viewing if you chooses … even with cremation…
Bobby’s wishes met…
My Southern Boy is very traditional…
NO hidden surprises with this funeral home…
all in black/white…
and finalized by us later…
My LOVE will be put in an urn/box… and I will keep until I pass… and then we will be put together into one vessel and buried together…
Both our desires met…
Such a weight has been lifted in making these arrangements…
a PEACE has come over both of us…
Thank you Lord for listening to my heart and leading me to the right people…
place…and comfort in making these hard decisions…
YOU are Always with me!…
We are NOT expecting to use these arrangements soon…
We pray daily for my Bobby’s health and strength in battling this cancer!…
that the chemo continues to keep it “at bay” for a long time…
That we will take one day at a time…
enjoying our friends, family, children, grandkids…and our special moments together…
We want to LIVE for the day…
soaking in every moment God has left for us…

“Applesauce” and “Eye Drops!”

My life seems quite out of control lately…

I get up…

make me a cup of coffee…

read or listen to news…

check outside for weather…

(Found this is as good as weather man sometimes!)…

I drive a little boy to school almost every morning…

His Grandmother takes care of him a lot…

like so many are doing these days…

and has no transportation…

I am home anyway and get up early… so I kinda committed to taking him in the mornings…

I don’t promise afternoon pick-ups…

but, along with another neighbor we manage to get him picked-up…

I gave him applesauce (in the little cups) with a plastic spoon one morning…

since he was a little cranky and had not eaten…

so now…

This is our “thing”…

I take it to him every time now…

I change-up on flavors…

Sometimes Cinnamon and sometimes Strawberry…

One day his Grandpa took him and he rings my door bell at 7:30am for his applesauce…

Have to love it!…

Bobby and I being out-of-town for a few days did not sit too well with his breakfast habit…

We went to Cherokee, NC    and Tennessee to spend a night and visit with my cousin/her husband…

Before I left I made this little one a chart to count down the days til school was out…

I think it helped…

Our few days away actually helped our spirits…

but, it seems we always have an incident…

Bobby had been given drops for his eyes due to Chemo being mixed incorrectly…

making his eyes… nose… and other areas run with a secretion that almost burned his skin…

He had been sitting outside a lot… at my cousins…

when I spotted what I thought to be his eye drops

and told him to let me put them in his eyes…

He went ballistic!…

hollering about burning of his eye….

Thank goodness I only dropped one drop in one eye….

BUT….

that was quite enough!….

It was NOT his eye drops but, drops of an alkaline that he mixes with water and drinks…

A natural healing drink he had been trying…

After washing out eye thoroughly with water and eye rinse from pharmacy…

I felt he needed to go to VA Medical Center in Murfreesboro, TN…  …where we were visiting my cousin…

Only a short ride and “precautionary treatment” seemed the right thing to do…

The staff was excellent!….

Getting his information as quickly as possible…

listening to “story” of what I had done…

showing them the bottle of drops….

Poison Control was called and immediately started numbing eye and then did a PH Test …

Washed it with what looked like a contact connected to a tiny hose… (Fit right over his eye-ball)…

They rinsed with a saline solution…  tested again

seemed to be fine….

Releasing him in the care of “the culprit”… ME… who had done this to his poor eye…. with eye drops again (Antibiotics)…

I want to praise the doctor- nurse- social worker- and office staff…

as to the quick reaction in the care for my husband…

They kidded with me that they were glad I had not used “Super Glue”…

I think I cried a bucket of tears…

I felt so bad…

Today… back to my job of taking my little neighbor fellow to school….

I also picked him up…

He asked, “You didn’t bring any applesauce?”…

I explained, “I only bring that for breakfast”…

“OH”… he says…. disappointment in his voice…

So… when we returned home…

I told him, “Come on over and get an applesauce”…” I have enough for the next few days”…

Being that school is out after Thursday…

He says, “Strawberry please!”…

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Today was Chemo Day and results of scan…

We have to leave too early for me to give my little fella a ride to school… but…

left his applesauce/plastic spoon on his Nanna’s front porch…

First thing! …

Scan was good…

NO growth…

NO change…

 

Bobby’s body has kept the cancer at bay (sleeping) for a year …

and so we will continue with same chemo drugs… for now…

and as he says, “I will live as if nothing is wrong with me as best as I can… taking one day at a time… and try to enjoy things we are able to do!”…

Love hearing him with this attitude…

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This morning we get up …

I run my little neighbor up to school for the last day…

Summer is officially here…

School is out!…

I feel as though I have gotten summer break too…

although have not minded helping out with this small boy…

I am sure Corvion will be elated today!

NOW…

do I keep “applesauce” in my fridge during summer break or not???

 

 

 

 

 

 

Comfy Cow For Breakfast… ANYONE???

Met with a friend from my High School days for lunch…

we usually easily agree… on where we eat…

This time… my friend suggests “Comfy Cow”…

I knew it was ice cream… but, figured it had lunch items also…

but…

when looking on internet…

it was just “ALL KINDS” of ice cream

Wonderful sounding ice creams…

but, that’s all… “NO real food!”…

I questioned her decision???

and she says, “Haven’t you ever eaten ice cream for breakfast?”…

I had to say YES!…

and “Lunch”…

and “Dinner”…

and of course “Snack Time”…

and I probably should have let it be…

but, my taste buds were thinking more of “Lunch Foods”…

After laughing about our lunch choice we decided on Mimi’s…

she had a buy one/get one entre’ coupon…

Sounded good to me!…

Having eaten at Mimi’s only one other time…

I remembered “IT WAS GOOD!”…

Such fresh food choices… delicious tasting… and “Mimosa’s” of several flavors…

I thought we might head to COMFY COW for dessert…

but, we were too full!…

Her omelet… potatoes…and banana chocolate chip muffin… was enough for her…

and my Quiche Lorraine… … fresh salad with Vinaigrette Dressing and Bran Muffin…was VERY filling…

We decided on another time for ice cream…

Will be making it our “meal” for the day…

We talked for hours as usual of our lives…

the upcoming 50th High School Reunion in October…

I had brought some old pictures from our days in school 

and summers we spent at Rough River…

I got my first camera for graduation… and have always enjoyed taking photos…

Always good to reminisce…

 

Don’t LIKE “IT”!

Continued from…

https://babyjill7.wordpress.com/2017/05/10/va-hospitals-other-favorite-saying-just-go-to-emergency-room/

We have talked to Doctor (Oncology) … and head nurse of same department where Bobby gets his Chemo Treatments…

After looking at him and discussion…

Chemo is suspended for a couple of weeks… to give his body time to heal…

That sounds funny to me…”time to heal”…when the Chemo is supposed to be trying to heal this Cancer!…

but, evidently the mix up on mixing the chemo drugs… was the culprit…

He is feeling slightly better…

Eyes still running some along with nose and other areas… but, “better”…

Taste is coming back…

Tips of fingers are so raw

suggested soaking in Selsun Blue Shampoo…

{Selenium: An essential mineral that is a component of an antioxidant enzyme, glutathione reductase, that is key in tissue respiration.}

YES!… what you use for dandruff… and what he has ben using for his dryness caused by Chemo drug…

Learning every day…

A scan will be given before next treatment … and then talk with Doctor and back to regular treatments if all is a “go!”…

I want to say both Doctor “Robin” and Head Nurse “Kristen”… were there for us today…

giving great care and concern in getting to bottom of problem…

I know “WE” want immediate answers…

“WE” want our priorities met!…

“WE” want this to NOT be happening…

Making us frustrated … 

impatient…

 

worried…

heart broken…

and if truth be known…

JUST WANT THIS NOT TO BE!…

 

 

 

 

VA Hospital’s “Other” Favorite Saying!… “Just go to Emergency Room!”…

Been a couple of rough weeks …

Bobby doing OK with new chemo drug added to other two he was already on…

Breaking out of the skin … main culprit…

but, even that … He accepted and kept going…

Trying as hard as he could to adjust…

He ALWAYS pulls it up and looks for what his capabilities are… with the extra side effects…

BUT…

He started what seemed to be sinus… allergies… with eyes…

Gave him allergy meds that were prescribed…

Used Netty Pot to clear nose and drainage… etc. …

BUT…

got worse…

Eyes running …

Nose running…

and gooey stuff appearing around eyes…

Some blood even appearing…

RED… Very Blood Shot eyes…

went to Eye Doctor at VA hospital who had done his cataract and eye lift procedures…

and they were very nice at fitting him in on a busy day…

“We just showed up!”…

Found this works sometimes…

The eye Doctor was puzzled…

He saw no infection…

and… conferred with another Doctor…

which immediately said…, “The chemo was causing this…”… Had seen several times…

Collects around eyes … causing swelling… running…etc. …

also clogs ducts…

Drops were given and redness has disappeared…

but, still crusting… running… and looks awful!…

and now nose doing same…

around mouth some…

and “private part” being effected also…

NOT GOOD!…

although not a lot of pain…

just very miserable…

When we went for treatment a week ago Wednesday…

we were surprised with a visit from the pharmacy who mixes his chemo…

and they reported that his chemo drug with some others…

had been mixed with an alcohol based water which was a NO NO!…

and had been given to him several times…

I immediately related the problems that had arisen in the past couple of weeks…

and they took notes and were going to check on this…

Also his Chemo Drugs were not coming from Cincinnati, Ohio… but, Indianapolis, Indiana now…

That put ??? in my head also…

As of today…

still suffering …

Talked to Nurse in  Hospice Department at VA Hospital last night… trying to connect with someone…

she said, “Sounds like body is trying to exit something

… by the secretions… and keep an eye on urination… due to kidneys being affected…

Emergency Room advised…

Made phone call to Oncology Department and even rode over to VA Hospital … but, to no avail…

Need to discuss with other doctors and will get back with us…

Advising him to go to Emergency Room if continues … but, could see him Friday…

Last time to Emergency Room… after 4 visits and also talking to clinic…

“He was diagnosed with Cancer”… and had a small heart attack…

a little late!…

If he hadn’t started urinating… which had ceased somewhat… We would be up the creek…

Another disappointing treatment from the VA Hospital again…

Felt we were not dealt with in a way we should have…

“BUSY” or not…

but, then my Bobby’s life is at stake… NOT there’s!…

to be continued…