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A Turn in the Road…

As I told a friend this morning…

Our road has taken a turn…

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The road to a long life together will be shortened…

We have had 47 years…

Not a short road by no means…

but, we had so many plans… in our minds…

things to finish…

things to visit…

things to do on our simple bucket lists…

But…

Life doesn’t work like we want all of the time…

Obstacles appear…

sometimes rocks… sometimes boulders…

sometimes hills… sometimes mountains…

some time creeks running slow… meandering along green pastures…

sometimes floods… heavy rains come down in a downpour…

God has given us many signs to relate how his world works…

The birds… animals…

The nature of weather…

The land how it grows and re-seeds itself…

The plants/trees that grown strong and then return to the Earth to make new soil…

and then there is HIS greatest creation… US!…

The birth of innocence…

The active/spontaneous child…

The youngsters discovering new things…

The young adults finding their way and setting goals…

The adults deciding on marriage/family/careers…

It’s beautiful isn’t it!…

Amazing… the perfectness of it…

So…

as my Bobby and I see this turn in the road…

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we know it must be God’s plan…

The questions we have…

Does it matter…

We believe in a Heavenly Father who knows us so well…

that has created us…

who has listened to us…

who has directed us…

so we know HE will sustain us…

encourage us…

give us strength we never knew we had…

help us with burdens we seem to have no control of…

lead us to the right decisions …

and most of all…

LOVE us and hold us in his arms…

Feeling the security of having HIM with us,,,

Thank you Lord…

 

 

Heartfelt News!

This is not a Happy Post…

I come writing with such a heavy heart…

actually… a hurt that is not quenched with kind words, hugs, caring thoughts, visits, phone calls…

I love everyone who does all of these things and without I wouldn’t be able to pull it together …

I wouldn’t be able to put one foot in front of the other…

But, when I sit quietly… contemplating the words I have heard concerning my Bobby’s prognosis…

I shutter…

my stomach ties in knots… my heart breaks… the tears flow…

We had a scan done the 13th…

just a check up… a follow-up…

from taking Chemo for a year…

something was not right… and it had only been three months from last “good” scan…

After more blood work… and this scan…

Cancer has returned in another area…

and it is growing fast!…

and they sit and tell us as best they can…

that there is no cure…

treatments might give a little time... but, the stronger meds have really bad side effects…

Questions are running through our heads…

Decisions have to be made…

and we are entering into an actual losing battle…

Quality of life raises it’s head first in our thoughts… but, the will to live as long as we can… enters too…

Together… we always decide things together…

we opt for some treatments until not helping…

Port was replaced yesterday… for the drugs to be applied…

Long 5 hour days ahead… but, just once every other week… a bag taken home for two nights… and then removed… for a week…

same routine as we had just gone though…

but, this time our hearts are hurting with the knowledge of the inevitable…

My Bobby will pass…

My mind screams NO!…

We have hugged, kissed, held each other…cried….but, most importantly prayed…

Our goal to pray together each day…

and feel God’s love holding us and giving us some peace…

We have to talk…

we have things that need to be done…

Issues to be settled…

and as I have said… all decisions are ours to make together… as we have always done…

Oh…

the racing thoughts …

preparation…

finances…

selling the house???

how to spend our days…

Grandchildren to tell…

Knowing the last things that we will do together

We know we are not immune to heartache, loss, pain…

all suffer these things in life…

and knowing we have the Lord on our side… through this horrific part of life… is a Blessing in itself…

My Bobby is so sad… so heart-sick…

His thoughts are mainly about me…

and his sonsGrandkidssisters that love him and will be visiting soon from Georgia…

Friends/Family…

He sits in his swing outside… his favorite spot to hash out things that he has in his mind…

I am glad he has it…

I sit and write…

My release…

The kids hover…with not wanting to hear this…

offering to help and be by our side through it all…

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A Week of Happenings…

Sunflower Seeds to plant…

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Bobby painting porch after rails finished…

Even though we have a sign of cancer returning… will know more Wednesday…

He stays busy and creative…

My INSPIRATION!

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My outside mobile… hanging in the tree limbs…

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Fresh Asparagus fried crispy and tender …

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As I talked to neighbors in the front yard… I just had to pick a few Dandelions and Violets…

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This little fatty was a rescue dog… named Clift… when we were at the yard sales Saturday…

I found an old bench (even though Bobby makes them)…for $5.00…

couldn’t resist…

Have plans to paint it for the house where Doug lives… They sit on the front porch a lot!…

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I also found this Holding Cross… I have one… but, will give this to someone in need…

Fits your fingers perfectly as you hold it…

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My Grandson was William Tell for “Living History” program at school…

Of course Grandma thinks he is the cutest!

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We have had “Flying Ants”…

we fight them at least once a year…

I checked to make sure they weren’t termites…

They die and leave almost as quick as they come…

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I know you loved seeing this!…

They give me the “willies”!

 

 

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Among Cottonwoods   by: Marilyn Griffin

Even during war times…

The heart yearns for home…

Sinks and climbs…

Forever roams…

 

A soldier I may be…

But, longing for Peace…

Over the sea…

Wanting fighting to cease…

 

A moment comes…

Deep in the woods…

Heartstring strums…

Among Cottonwoods…

 

Home deserted…

People have fled…

Some abducted…

Some have bled…

 

Left behind…

No longer played…

It once shined…

As bodies swayed…

 

To the music…

That brought joy…

Singing the lyric…

Awakes a young boy…

 

Leaving family…

To fight for country…

Leaving wistfully…

Loving them dearly…

 

Returning years later…

 It was found…

Feeling eager…

To feel what was bound…

 

The only thing left…

The piano I played…

On ears now deft…

And life that is frayed…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FWF: The Hardest Goodbye

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FWF | The Hardest Goodbye

I’ve had many hard good byes…

The loss of my Mother and Father…

The loss of my Brother and Sister…

Telling Bobby goodbye on his way to Viet Nam…

But, my Hardest Goodbye… is when I have to tell my son goodbye…

After living with us for 44 years…

suffering from Bi-polar and Schizoaffective Disorder…

I never thought my husband and I would live by ourselves…

I knew we would have Doug with us forever or until we grew too old to have him…

No one would want him to live with them…

His mood swings were so severe…

We could only manage to take all that evolves…(episodes) I called them…

We grew to know him better than himself at times…

Finally this past year… with his worst episode yet…

Bobby and I decided he could not come back home…

We love him so much…

and had devoted ourselves to him…

because he was our son!…

My “Miracle” came… that I had asked the Lord for…

A place was found for him to go…

and medications are given twice on a daily basis…

My heart was wrenched from me the day I had to tell him…

but, he seemed to understand and has accepted our decision…

I cried and actually wailed for weeks…

and the tears still come…

I think he is just glad to know he will be taken care of…

when we are gone…

That it is settled….

but, it’s still “The Hardest Good Bye” I say…  every time he has to leave from a visit… or spend the night…

He is still my “little boy”… who needed extra care…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I went simple with the cooking this weekend…

Hamburger Helper… always a variety you like…

This was good!… and only needed a pound of Ground Beef, water (seasoning packet and Penne included)…

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Cheesy Tuna Helper…

Always liked Tuna Casserole when growing up… and every now and then… I fix it just for me…

2 cans White Albacore Tuna, frozen peas (1/3 of bag). milk, water, butter… (sauce/ noodles are included)

Bake for 35 minutes… sprinkle with buttered bread crumbs and bake another 6 minutes…

If not using “helper”… I use mushroom soup with milk for sauce… add cheese…

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With both dishes … you will only need a salad or veggie…

( I had peas left over from Tuna Cass. for Bobby and Doug to eat with the pasta!…WINNER!)

 

Fresh Kale Greens… a favorite of my guys…

and when getting it at the grocery…

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I used only half of the packet in case too strong…

was OK… but, could have used all of the packet for full flavor…

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OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA As the greens cook and steam… (at least an hour to an hour and a half)…

the color turns darker…

I love them with sliced sweet onion and vinegark20252153 k13400977So good for you too!

Always wash greens and I break leaves from the stems… eating only the fresh greenery…

 

and you know I would have to fix something sweet!…

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Gingerbread Cake…

or you can make cookies from this mix…

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I didn’t have any powdered sugar… but, you can put white sugar in a blender and run on high until powdered…

works great!…

Add a little lemon juice/water to taste and then put frosting in a sandwich bag,,,

cut off tip and drizzle on top of cake…

Just enough lemon to make a tasty cake

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I had this on the Bus Trip we took to Belterra Park…

Panzanella Italian Bread Salad…

The Buffet is really good… especially the salads… had never had… and really liked it…

I found this recipe… and it seemed similar to what I ate… so it will be my next salad making recipe…

Ingredients…

4 large vine ripened tomatoes, cut into large cubes or wedges

1/2 pound stale country-style Italian bread, crusts removed and cubed (about 8 cups)

1 1/4 cups thinly sliced red onions

2 teaspoons minced garlic

1/4 cup red wine vinegar

1/2 cup Italian extra-virgin olive oil

1 bunch fresh basil, stems removed, washed and spun dry, turn into pieces

Salt and freshly ground black pepper

Directions

In a large bowl, combine the tomatoes, bread, and onions.

In a small bowl, whisk together the garlic, vinegar and oil.

Pour the dressing over the bread salad and let sit for 30 minutes at room temperature.

Add the basil and salt and pepper, to taste, and toss to combine. Serve.

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so it was good to be able to go somewhere and have fun…

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OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA Besides the Casino… there is horse racing starting in May…

Seven of us went…

Nephew, Niece, Sister-in-law, Sister, Husband , Friend and myself…

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Great Company!

 

 

 

 

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