Daily Prompt: Forgive and Forget?

Share a story where it was very difficult for you to forgive the perpetrator for wronging you, but you did it — you forgave them.
Photographers, artists, poets: show us REPENTENCE.

Oh, this is a touchy one…

I don’t know if you can say I was actually wronged… or just how I perceived things

I’ve only felt hurt in my life… by some things that my siblings have said… and some things they didn’t say

Being the youngest… I was always considered to be the “baby”  of the family

When I was small that was great!… but, when I started to grow up…

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Finished school…

Had several jobs…

Married…

Had kids of my own…

Dealing with problems…

Dealing with heartache…

I was still considered to be too young to make decisions at times… well, it seemed to me… all of the time…

My Mom chose to come and live with me when she felt she needed more help

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I had a child with a mental disability… bipolar disorder… but, thought… we would give it a try for her sake

She lived with my family for five years

and only had one incident with my son and his problem…

I thought that was awesome…

He watched my Mom when I had to work…

Cooking for her… getting her things… having conversations… their relationship grew!ama0002

My Mom  decided that he should get paid a little for helping her while I worked… An amount was set…  This only was done for a few months until she fell and went into a nursing facility

I could tell this was not liked by my siblings…

I was receiving money once a month too…

Mom’s decision again when she moved in with us…

During this time my husband was laid off from work for over a year…

So the extra was helping…

As I continued to work… My husband and son became the caregivers of my Mom… Not bathing and such…

but, looking after her during the day…

No one could have been more decent and caring…

My little family was changed during this time

My time was spent on Dr. appointments… bathing… food preparation… washing/drying clothes… medicine regiment… hair appointments… friends that came for coffee and snacks every day… dishes that were always in my sink… The extras you purchase for food, drinks, gasoline, trips here and there, having a listening ear, always having to be home when others were having fun…

I had made this commitment... but, my son and husband were committed too…

Our life was on hold…

I said my Mom was selfish one time… after she had left my home and had to be put in a nursing home…

I was hollered at in my facespoke to with anger I had never had to deal with… and told not to speak of Mother in that way ever again!…

She was mine… my Mom too… and I had her when others were going on with their lives… and had learned many things …

I only had meant that we… as her kids… should be able to have an evening for some fun without feeling guilty about Mom not seeing us for one night…

I left on that accord and went home…

I couldn’t even think that after all I had done… that these words could be uttered to me…

words of anger… that cut like a knife from someone I loved with all of my heart!k9136879

We hugged later and this incident was never spoken of between us…k15702821

I also have another sibling… who for some reason… doesn’t choose to love me the way I would like to be loved…

I have tried with all my heart to be nice… be caring… sending and making invitations that were never acted on…

I would send small gifts at Christmas for all of the family… I would try to remember birthdays and special events… making every attempt to go to anything I was invited to…

but, I still feel… I’m just not the person who they can be close to…

This hurts so deeply…

Being that I know I am a good person… I would be a good sister…

Well, I can’t write any more… tears are falling…

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My husband says I let people hurt me too much…

That I forgive too much…

That I will always be the one who turns the other cheek…

and he is right…

for I believe LOVE is stronger than anything… and I will have no regrets in treating others with respect… care… and continued yearning for a relationship that will probably never be…k11999706

Do I forgive and forget?     k15204576   k0286681

Matthew 6:14-15 King James Version (KJV)

14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: 15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

in a heartbeat k5348797… although, the hurt I feel… remains…

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