Pent-up Emotions…

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I wasn’t going to start this on a sad note… but, the tears seem to flow today…

I think it’s true about what they say…

when hearing something devastating… we get an extra kick of something that just holds us… and lets us do what we have to do…

Then… at an unknown moment… the flood walls are broke and the emotions are released…

I woke up with the most uncontrollable sobbing…

I knew immediately it related to my pent-up emotions… of hearing that Bobby has cancer…

and all of the positive feelings I’m trying to have… just went to the wind…

I will get back to my strong state… but, right now I will let the tears flow… and get some of the emotions I have been bearing out!…

I imagine that is what it’s like with guys/gals with PTSD after coming home from war…

and with what I am feeling now…

I am so sad that this is what they have to endure…

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14 thoughts on “Pent-up Emotions…

  1. Hi Marilyn,

    I know all about those pent up emotions when dealing with Cancer. It’s so devastating on the entire family, but the hardest on the person going through it. All you can do is take it one day at a time and enjoy Bobby and your time together everyday! As you and I both know that tomorrow is never promised for any of us. It’s OK to cry, sob or even get mad. Nobody can tell you how to act or feel, but just remember you’re a strong woman, with a wonderful loving family and friends! Like you I wish the word Cancer never ever existed! Right now family and friends are so supportive of you, I’m here if you to need to talk. I always remember turning little moments into special occasions when I was with my Dad. So Marilyn, make every moment count!!!!!!

    Love & friendship,
    Andrea

  2. It’s okay, don’t fight the tears. God lets those tears flow so you may have renewed strength tomorrow. Many times I did this after days of remaining strong with Al. It is important to feel the emotional tears as much as it is to feel the love for Bobby. Never, ever give up the fact that God heals. God can heal him completely, or God can take him home because there is a much more important job for him to do. Either way, cling to your faith dear Marilyn, and don’t let go. Big hugs, bigger hugs, I care

  3. Dear Marilyn, I wish I were close enough to give you a real hug and to help you let all those tears go. Andrea’s words are very wise and I echo them. Take care and know that you are loved xx

  4. You’ve been so strong and maybe you feel safe enough to let go a bit now Bobby is doing so well. You have had a big shock and your world has suddenly changed – it is ok not to feel good! Don’t be hard on yourself, easier said than done – think what would you say to a friend who was in this situation. Try and accept that if you’re having a bad day that is just how it is for now.
    Love to both of you x

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