Blessings Come in Many Ways…

Blessings come in many ways… and in many shapes…
People…
Presents…
Words…
and of course “GOD”…
Since my Bobby has been diagnosed with Terminal Cancer…
Our Blessings have been flowing around us…
“Overflowing”… actually…
I feel God knows I will have an exceptionally hard time when he is taken…
so I have been surrounded with the most caring… loving group of people…
To name each one would be impossible…
I share this in that I hope they will know by my words… and actions…
how grateful my heart is…
Blessings came in comforting words as I cried on some’s shoulders…
Blessings came in the form of cookies…
a sweetness that was devoured…
with the love that they were sent…
Blessings came with visits…
at just the right moments… just out of the blue…
Blessings came in acts of actual work… helping us when unable to go that day…
Blessings came from notes…
like a stone with sweet words of HOPE written on it…
Blessings of hugs… and sweet faces… that make you smile…
Blessings of phone calls… some daily… some with just the words…”how ya doing?”…
Blessings of chats… sitting and just letting each other’s words flow…
Blessings of a lunch… pizza… donuts… jam… something sweet…
Blessings of gifts… Thoughtful and memorable…
Blessings of laughter among tears…
and just laughter of things we do that is silly…
Blessings of friendships that have lasted for decades… that even as we are older… we still have a bond…
Blessings from a pet that feels my heartaches and purrs me to calmness… with her tiny rough kisses on my cheek…
Blessings of little faces that come for treats and a “Thank You” on their lips…
If God has shown me anything through this trial…
It is that HE never forsakes us…
He leads others to bid HIS LOVE in so many ways…
Thank you Jesus!

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Thoughts In My Mind…

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When your husband is told they have little time to live…
all kinds of thoughts run through your mind…
Disbelief…
Heartache…
Anger…
The why, the when, the where, the how…
WHY? … Cancer…
When? … No real answer… maybe a year… maybe longer…
Where?… Home or hospital…
How… Painfully or peacefully? …
Disbelief that the Doctors have read the scans wrong!…but, NO… They keep telling us it's true…
Heartache never leaves…
shifts from sad days… to good days to back to bad…Very surreal…
Anger with God… I can honestly say NO at this time…
Anger more of this disease that no cure has been found…
but, I don't hold God responsible for our pain… If anything I praise Him for the comfort He gives to me and my Bobby when we get down…
As a child of God… I know I am not immune to health issues, pain or sorrow…
but, I also know He brings me comfort , peace and joy…
I have not the answers to the questions of why my Bobby…or
why at this time…
I do know that in a blink of an eye things can happen…
So… I try to fill each moment with as much goodness as possible…
fixing good food …
keeping our home clean…
laughing…
joking…
being as generous as our budget can sustain…
having kind words and deeds for our friends, neighbors and family…
seeing the joy in the little ones who knock on our door for a popsicle or other treat…
sitting until midnight with neighbors in our front yard… talking of the things that are on our minds… Some good… some bad… some fun… some laughable…
sitting close without a word next to my Bobby…
and then going our separate ways to churn our thoughts in our minds…
As good as being together…
Moments of solitude can be helpful too…
We try to stay on task…
with repairs…
Spiffing up a few things for the sale of our home if need be…
Making sure insurance is up to date…
Taking note of where things are… to be able to lay my hands on quickly…
Making decisions that my Bobby has requested…
and will be carried through…
Reminding the boys that although we seem fine…
their Daddy will be leaving us …
and I will change…
I will probably need them more than ever…
but, I also will make decisions they might not like…
When this plate is handed to you…
you wake with it…
you go to sleep with it…
EVERYTHING you do has the backdrop of this… sometimes in full color and sometimes in black and white…
As much as you grow and learn…
there are times your heart aches with a pounding in your chest of such dread…
and the dam that you have been shoring up…
bursts with a flow of tears like it will never stop…
and as you can see by my writings…
Your mind is jumping from here to there…
from the present to the future in a blink of an eye…
in each breath you take…
I will rely on our God to keep us surrounded in His Loving Arms…
Keeping us in the knowledge that HE is with us…
and has prepared our way for this happening in our lives…
I will Praise His name and follow in His Grace that He brings to us…
so others will know the Love He has for them also… and His redemption was for all…
AMEN…

Blessed By Family/Friends…

I ordered me a new camera… an Olympus Digital…
I had used mine so much it was just plain wore out and then after dropping it…
it was never the same!…
Through Amazon I got this camera for only $2.02 …
On sale…
Had Discount points built up…
and Free shipping…
I was elated!…
I needed a good camera for photo taking when Bobby and I go to Washington DC on "Honor Flight"… in September…
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My cousin's husband and my Bobby have birthdays in July…
I made Peanut Butter Fudge for Jack and mailed…
From what I heard he REALLY LIKED it!…
simple recipe…
PEANUT Butter FUDGE
Boil 2-cups sugar + 1/2 cup milk for 2-1/2 minutes…
Add 1-cup Peanut Butter (smooth or crunchy) + 1=teaspoon vanilla…
stir together quickly and immediately pour and spread into buttered pan…(8" X 8")…
I made a double batch to make extra thick …
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Yesterday was a Blessed Day…
Visits from my sister…a niece and my oldest Granddaughter with her dog Dexter…
throughout the day…
Phone calls from a nephew… cousin…
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Porch time sitting with neighbors…and…
Neighbors walking over and bringing Huber Wine…
I feel the LOVE!

Honor Flight…

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We had to have heating and air conditioning put in last month…
never had been changed … since we moved here in April of 1988…
It was Easter Sunday morning…
Family helped … especially a brother-in-law…
who later passed with a brain tumor…
way too young…
Leaving my sister and six children…
it’s funny how your mind works…
one thought leads to another…
anyway…
when the guys were bringing out the old furnace…
my bird bath that I had just made was broken…
I had to bite my tongue…
I was so upset…
especially since I had searched out the bowl for it and made it myself…
Oh well!…
The air feels so much better…
I imagine the old unit was struggling to work…
Of course it seems to pour sometimes when it rains…
because besides the cost of the heat/cool units…
I have had to have dental work done…
One more trip and a new crown will hopefully keep me going on my chewing …
Dearly hope so…
Chemo still an ongoing ritual…
and Bobby still holding the cancer at bay…
we both are a little more emotional I think…
but, doing OK!…
We made a short trip for Bobby’s Birthday… to French Lick Indiana…
Free room… free buffets…and a little money to play penny slots…
A good time…
Came home with some of the money we had set aside … which is always good!…
My sister went with us…
we travel well… together…
and get along… with sharing a room… and deciding where to eat. etc….
Bobby still going to the Live Strong Program at the YMCA… and I do my swimming exercises…when I can…
A friend across the street… who cuts our grass…
gave us a letter about a program called…
HONOR FLIGHT, INC. …
it is for Veterans with terminal illnesses…
This organization honors American Veterans for their sacrifice and achievements by taking (flying) them to Washington DC to see the memorials at no cost to the Veteran…
They want the Veteran’s guardian (care giver) to fly and be with them to make it a wonderful experience…
SO…
I wrote it up…filled out the paperwork…
and sent it to them…
Today…
we received a call from Honor Flight that Bobby was chosen to go…
all expenses paid… for 3 days…
I pay a nominal amount to go with him…
We will fly from Louisville…
have a buffet dinner at night with speeches from representatives…
staying at a Hilton Hotel in Washington DC…
the next day after breakfast…
we will be taken to all of the Memorials…to view…
and on the 3rd day after lunch… we will arrive back in Louisville…
WE are so excited to get to make this trip …
and so grateful for this showing of gratitude…
and making my Bobby’s last days even better!…
Thank you Lord!

Back From Vacation!

I didn’t get my computer in to be fixed… so… I am at library writing and making a few copies…
Being back from vacation…
I am trying to get back in the groove…
We had a wonderful time!…
Being with my grandkids…my sons…a daughter-0in-law and her Mom…and of course my Bobby…
I WAS SO HAPPY!…
We all get along so well…
where we want to eat…
keeping laundry(towels washed and dried…
and doing our jaunts around Panama City…
I will say…
LOVE our GPS…
We ate at…
Hammerhead Fred’s…
Olive Garden…
Pineapple Willys…
Moe’s BBQ…
Nick’s Pizza…
and one night Brian / Melanie cooked (grilled) the best hamburgers…
Pam made the best Macaroni Salad…
I made strawberry shortcake…
So good and fun eating in our room…
I should say rooms…
Great time at Splash Panama…
the hotel (condo) we stayed at…
3 large bedrooms…
living room… with sleeper sofas…
dining area… 3 full bathrooms… and fully equipped kitchen with dishwasher… washer/dryer…

Balconies on every room… with us being on a corner condo…
walk out to swimming pools… and beach area…
bar near pools for cold beverages…
and food…
splash park for the kids right there…and a lazy river with inner tubes…
our only problem we found was that the parking was across the street… so a lot of walking… especially when carrying anything heavy…

Traveling was great… a little rain but, just 1/2 of one day while there…
and then we took advantage of Movie Time…”The Mummy with Tom Cruise”…
OK movie…but, it is about “POPCORN” isn’t it???
We arrived back safe…
and chemo day on this past Wednesday…
Bobby doing good…
No repercussions from trip…
NOW… with his birthday coming up Sunday… we were thinking of doing something???
and so on the 13th we are going to French Lick Casino …
we happened to get a free room and two dinners…just in time…
I call these God’s Blessings!….

Vacation Trip… Finally Here!

Will be leaving my computer to be repaired while on vacation…
Think I need new driver…
It will be like leaving my old cat… sad…
I will miss both…
and my Jill will be looking for me I’m sure…
A sweet neighbor/friend… will be checking on her for me… along with mail… etc. …
but, my computer will just have to bear it until I return…
waiting for me to pound out my ideas… thoughts… and words to whoever will listen…
My computer has become like an old friend…
I was intimidated at first and then starting exploring … and now…
I love her!…
No, I haven’t actually given my computer a name…
but, she is a good friend…
letting me sit and pound out my frustrations and joys…
We will be leaving for Panama City, Florida this Friday…
My countdown is down to one more day…
I can’t believe it!…
Bobby and I are going with our kids, grandkids, daughter-in-law and her mother…
Separate cars… but, will meet in Alabama for a night …
taking it easy… ALL of us…
and then heading to the beach the next day…
I feel pretty prepared…
clothes about ready to pack…
cooler cleaned and drinks/snacks bought for the road trip…
Bobby has the car in excellent condition…
going over tires, brakes, oil/fluids, transmission and a cleaning/wax job even…
That’s my guy…
We will finish up last-minute things today and tomorrow…
Some friends want us to go for ice cream this evening… before we leave…
Love this sweet thought…
Letting us know we will be missed…
Neighbors are excited for us getting away as us I do believe…
They are the kindest…
declaring our house will be watched…
In my thoughts…
I feel this may be the last trip together with our little family for my Bobby…
so… it is important for us to go and enjoy the boys… the grandkids and our little family we have made…
Skipping a treatment(chemo) will let Bobby be at his best for the trip…
more energy… less side effects…
so wish us a safe trip please…
and prayers are welcomed for a lovely time…