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Palliative Care Meeting #2…

Palliative care (pronounced pal-lee-uh-tiv) is specialized medical care for people with serious illness. It focuses on providing relief from the symptoms and stress of a serious illness. The goal is to improve quality of life for both the patient and the family.

Palliative care is provided by a specially trained team of doctors, nurses, social workers and other specialists who work together with a patient’s doctors to provide an extra layer of support. It is appropriate at any age and at any stage in a serious illness and can be provided along with curative treatment.

 

This is what Bobby and I are going through…
We met with a team again today…

discussing our feelings…

our questions (concerns)…

our knowledge of what Bobby is experiencing with the cancer he has…

We discussed DNR… Do Not Resuscitate… k4969800

and some of Hospice Care…

We were told again that his cancer is terminal…k21223976

Not that you have a specific date of “death”…

but, that the cancer will take his life…

No matter how you take in those words…

you cannot actually breathe at that point…

your whole being is shouting from inside NO!…

Don’t say those words!…

We look at each other reaching for each others hand…k13560373

The tears come to my eyes… and roll down my cheeks…

I am grasping the words…

but, so wish I wasn’t!…

They ask us questions… and we relate again to this group of professionals that “we are our own team”…

Have been for 47 years… and will continue to be until our last breath is drawn…

They seem amazed at our truthfulness with each other…

our way of thinking and coping with this news…

We have always discussed everything together… so we wonder why others find it hard to believe of how open we are on the subject of death…

but…

isn’t death a part of life???

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Bobby explains his “ring” (circle) scenario… a beginning that travels around until it meets it’s self again… k7533959 …

a continuum of a life we committed to each other many years ago…

Bobby expresses his Faith… in that he always asks God to forgive him of any transgressions when praying… He wants forgiveness before he asks anything for himself and others…

His desire is to please his Savior…

I express to the Pastor that is the last to see us… that “God” is beside me all  of the time… but, when we speak to Him out loud… in prayer… together…

we feel His Presence and Strength … lasting and protecting us from thoughts and words that hurt us…

We are as ONE!…

The Son, The Father , The Holy Spirit and Us!…

and through this relationship that we have formed

we will sustain…

we will be brave…

we will comfort others as they comfort us…

Our Lord will keep us in His Hand as He does anyone who believes…

Praying before we leave with a servant of the Lord was a good ending of our meeting…

 

 

 

 

 

A Turn in the Road…

As I told a friend this morning…

Our road has taken a turn…

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The road to a long life together will be shortened…

We have had 47 years…

Not a short road by no means…

but, we had so many plans… in our minds…

things to finish…

things to visit…

things to do on our simple bucket lists…

But…

Life doesn’t work like we want all of the time…

Obstacles appear…

sometimes rocks… sometimes boulders…

sometimes hills… sometimes mountains…

sometimes creeks running slow… meandering along green pastures…

sometimes floods… heavy rains come down in a downpour…

God has given us many signs to relate how his world works…

The birds… animals…

The nature of weather…

The land how it grows and re-seeds itself…

The plants/trees that grown strong and then return to the Earth to make new soil…

and then there is HIS greatest creation… US!…

The birth of innocence…

The active/spontaneous child…

The youngsters discovering new things…

The young adults finding their way and setting goals…

The adults deciding on marriage/family/careers…

It’s beautiful isn’t it!…

Amazing… the perfectness of it…

So…

as my Bobby and I see this turn in the road…

crossing over “our bridge”… k12890945

looking toward “our sunset”… k8447935

we know it must be God’s plan…

The questions we have…

Does it matter…

We believe in a Heavenly Father who knows us so well…

that has created us…

who has listened to us…

who has directed us…

so we know HE will sustain us…

encourage us…

give us strength we never knew we had…

help us with burdens we seem to have no control of…

lead us to the right decisions …

and most of all…

LOVE us and hold us in his arms…

Feeling the security of having HIM with us,,,

Thank you Lord…

 

 

In God’s Hands

I don’t know that my mind has really grasped what is happening in our lives… cfr0043

Married for 46 years…

we have had our share of ups/downs…

Jobs… health issues… son with bi-polar… family situations…

but…

we are good! k24561264

I think my Bobby and I have learned to take things pretty much in stride…

Yes… we have feelings that surface… k0969530

But, knowing we both have our Faith… and facing reality head on

makes our days better…

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We don’t like what is happening…

we would like it to be different…

but, as I have always said, “We are not immune to life’s circumstances… some good…. some bad!”

We have always known that we have a special love…

A bond that holds us together with a touch…

a kiss on the cheek… k3759869

a hug as we pass…

a kind word

an “I love you”… at unexpected times… u17245841

I hate the word…”cancer”…

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Never wanted it to be in my little family…

but, it has reared it’s head recently …

Our follow-up visit to primary care doctor… was good…

A thorough check-up… vitals taken… and a look of incision… and listening to his heart…

Blood work drawn for labs… to check his levels…

and the doctor read and read over the reports concerning him on the computer…

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I listened as I heard “STAGE 3″…

That didn’t sound too good…

Explained as well as she could what that meant…

Chemo needed… to address cancer slightly in lymph nodesnear where tumor was removed…

I read and reread what that meant…

Not good… not bad…

Criteria ranging from 5-10 years… in life expectancy…

That shakes me to my core…

because we keep hearing “5”…

What to do…

Getting him healthy as he can get right now…

where the Chemo will not drain him…

but, afterwards… “GOD WILLING”…

we will live our remaining years as best we can…

Will we make changes? … k22125429

Some maybe… but, probably just live our lives as before… with a little more presence of making each day count for something!…

I leave my hopes…

my thoughts… k2742205

my dreams…

in the Hands of God! k12818777

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“In God We Still Trust!”

After our country k0169345seeing, hearing and living through some horrific events lately… this song gives me courage to uplift my source of faith… belief… and pride..

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So thankful for my provider… and hope… that there will be better days ahead…

I know we haven’t seen the likes of so many people in other countries… but, just a taste is enough for me to want it to end NOW!…

God Bless America..

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In God I Trust!…

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You place your hand on His Bible, when you swear to tell the Truth
His name is on our greatest Monuments, and all our money too,
And when we Pledge allegiance, there’s no doubt where we stand,
There is no separation, we’re one Nation under Him.

Chorus:
In God We Still Trust
Here in America
He’s the one we turn to every time
The goin’ gets rough
He is the source of all our Strength
The One who watches over us
Here in America
In God We Still Trust

Now there are those among us, who want to push Him out,
And erase His name from everything, this country’s all about,
From the Schoolhouse to the Courthouse, they’re Silencing His Word,
Now it’s time for all Believers, to make our Voices heard.

In God We Still Trust,
Here in America
He’s the one we turn to every time
The goin’ gets rough
He is the source of all our Strength
The One who watches over us
Here in America
In God We Still Trust

Here in America
Here in America
Here in America,

In God We Still Trust
Here in America,

In God We Still Trust
Here in America

“Believing ” … Is So Important!”

What a wonderful time Christmas  should be… but, it’s getting harder and harder to feel the joy anymore… I try so hard…by baking …by finding small gifts to give… wrapping everything in pretty paper and ribbons… decorating a tree… decorating inside the house and out a little…but, I still feel quite empty at times… Everywhere you look there are festivities going on… movies, parties , shopping , cooking, TV ads, store ads …I think I know what it is that makes me feel blue … it’s knowing that so many families are in need … not just for Christmas presents, but food, utility and house payments , gasoline for the car … I see the pain in so many people’s eyes… wondering… What is going to happen to them and their families Where are they going to be living next year when they might lose their home Where will they turn to get help with the necessities to keep surviving every day… What will happen if they become ill… If they haven’t already lost their job… will they have one next year … And if they are working, will it be enough to meet their families needs… I didn’t say “wants” … just needs Who actually cares about them?… Who really understands their situation?… Clearly the world is in a bad way… and I have found personally, that the only thing that keeps me motivated, keeps me having hope, keeps me focused … is the love of those who share a kind word, a helping hand , a “pep me up” talk, a home cooked meal, a hug and a kiss , a promise that all will turn out OK!… And then it’s my turn to react… by having faith in others… having faith in our country … having faith in my families love… having faith that tomorrow is a new day with new dreams and mainly having  faith in the One who saved me… showing me what Believing is all about… And with that comes the   to endure, the strength to know there will be better days!

God Bless All This Christmas Season!